FieldTrip FUN

This week we went on Chace's 1st kindergarten field trip. SO MUCH FUN!! I was lucky enough to be picked as a parent volunteer, and thankfully Chace is still young enough that it's cool to have your mom tag along:) 
Chace was most thrilled to travel on a yellow school bus, and we all went to the pumpkin patch. All 3 kindergarten classes. oh yes, fun indeed!
Chace enjoyed the tours and having his Mommy in charge of a group of classmates...."My Mommy is the BEST hide and seeker so if any of you need help finding a pumpkin she's the one to ask!".

Life is good when you're surrounded by little people who LOVE the simple things. 

choices/questions/answers????

I have come to a point in my life where I am wondering what to do next.  my sole purpose in this world is to be a Mommy. A good Mommy. The bestest Mommy. and raise my 2 little people to lead fulfilling lives.  I am lucky in countless ways, and never forget to say thanks each night before going to bed.   That being said, I am so tired. Tired of HAVING to work (yes I know having a job, a wonderful job at that, is a blessing in these times), only to barely make ends meet, and at the end of the day have all 3 stooges sad and frustrated that Mommy has to go to work tomorrow.  I don't mean to sound ungrateful. I am simply fed up with missing my kids everyday. fed up with not having any help, and  having to choose between my life long dream of being Mommy, and bringing home the bacon.
Life is more blessed than cursed. I am well aware of our gift of everyday, whether it is unconventional or not is not the point.  Simply being here, together, loving and living, is the point, and the gift. 
I never thought I would become a single parent. nor did I ever think that my faith and morals and belief would be tested as deeply as it was, and continues to be, through the path I stumbled into having to choose between my sons, and the man I vowed to stick by.  I am humbled, and hurt, that I was not loved in return, and deeply wounded for my sons, to know that they are not loved by that same man. It breaks my heart each day, to know that while they are the 2 most precious beings in my world, I made such a bad decision in a partner for myself, and in many ways, the 3 of us pay for it, and will continue to do so, for many years to come.
I want to be a fulltime stay at home mom. The mom that my kids know will always be there, and their friends know they can rely on for backup when no one else is around.  I daycare 3 extra kids right now, and love it. I sincerely want to follow my ECE education and spend my heart and soul and energy on loving children.
Paycheques are for bills, spending and investments.  
I believe, with all my heart and soul, that the only worthy investment is in our children, for they are the only investment that gives back tenfold, whatever we choose to invest in their lives.

I need guidance, to find the path , the true path, for us 3Stooges.

CatNap

In the hectic life of raising 2 boys, and Furbabies, it's so heartwarming to catch the very rare quiet moments.  Zooper has a  stuffed kitten that she will carry around with her and "tuck in" when she curls up in her bed to catch a "catnap". It's sooo cute.  She's also made it known, loud and clear, that Chace is "hers" and she'll love us when she wants to, but Chace is the apple of her eye.  It's so sweet to watch my son interact with her, so gently and lovingly.

Uncle DJ

My little brother is pretty cool. In his own unique way....and my boys are lucky to have such an amazing uncle to call their own.  I feel very blessed to have the privilege of watching my little guys interact with and absolutely idolize my brother.  Amazes me how much he can be a heavy metal foul mouthed rocker, and in the next instant, be down at a 4yr old's level discussing the finer points of Ninja Turtles, soccer, and how to put together a proper air guitar :)  Uncle Dj, you rock, and not just in your day to day band life (Without Mercy rocks!!). We love ya Uncle!

Wishes

I hope that days come easy and moments pass slow,


And each road leads you where you want to go,


And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,


I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.


And if one door opens to another door closed,


I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,


If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,






More then anything, more then anything,


My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it,


To your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,


You never need to carry more then you can hold,


And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,


I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,


Yeah, this, is my wish.






I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,


All the ones who love you, in the place you left,


I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,


And you help somebody every chance you get,


Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,


And you always give more then you take.






Oh More then anything, Yeah, and more then anything,


My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it,


To your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,


You never need to carry more then you can hold,


And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,


I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,


Yeah, this, is my wish.

I wonder what your doing right now,

and if everyone is treating you kind.














I hope there is a special person,






a nice friend you can find.














I wonder if the teacher knows






just how special you are to me.






and if the brightness of your heart






is something she can see.














I wonder if your thinking about me






and if you need a hug.






I already miss the sound of your voice






and how you give my leg a tug.














I wonder if you could possibly understand






how hard it is for me to let you grow.






On this day know that my heart breaks






for this is the first step in letting my baby go.

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