Boo!

BroBonding

I relish in seeing the way my 2 little troublemakers bond. THey have their own special little world and it is so amazing to watch just how close my sons are. This wonderful little world hosts some fist fights and wrestling sessions that aren't all in good fun, but most days the two are like Mutt and Jeff, giggling laughing and imagining. Together.
I feel so very lucky to be able to see this, and watch my two little men grow and experience life together.

Chace asked me the other day amid a city of mega blocks (I was informed it was their fort because it's going to snow soon). "Mommy can my brother be my friend too? Cause I love him like both."

Cole was waiting, almost anxiously, for my answer...he really wanted big brother, his hero, to be his friend too.

"you can be friends with whomever you choose. I think it's pretty special if you can be brothers and friends too. THat seems pretty lucky to me."

COle beamed, and Chace nodded. He turned to his little brother and said "Ok we're buddies too. That makes me content." "Ya me too Chace. thanks for loving me like both."

My two handsome sons went on playing and building and bonding.

Ifind myself wondering where the heck the time went, especially lately, with both boys printing, spelling, and exploring the "Big boy" world. Definitely bittersweet....and what I wouldn't give for a night in the rocking chair, my baby boys fast asleep, snuggled up close.

I am very proud of how my little men are growing, experiencing, learning. Each of them developing their own viewpoints, interests, and personality.

I look back now and their personalities aren't much different from when they were babies. incredible really.

I love my boys.

Printing Press

Very proud of my little Prince, he's so proud that he can print his name, and decided at 6am this morning that showing off these skills was fun. :)

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Clock Watching

Cassy, we love you. For 10 years you and I have been together. Companions. "girlfriends". I promise you, my most loyal friend, I will not let you suffer, and however long we have left here on earth together you will be happy and know you're loved.
Old Girl, you make our house feel like Home. XOXO

CupCake Cuties

Mommy got the brilliant idea to bake cupcakes and have the boys decorate them all by themselves...OHMY!! Who knew icing could hide for days....on walls, under the table, on chairs, on the floor....*sigh*....

ThankfulNess

The boys listed off the things they are thankful for today. It was cute watching them count on their fingers. Chace even asked me if he could count his thumb because it was technically not a finger. Ha Ha!

Chace's top5

1. You Mommy


2. Magic School Bus


3. Nature


4. my friends. they make me laugh


5. Grandma's hugs.

Cole's Top5

1. Diggers


2. Mama


3. Grandpa being silly. He's really funny


4. being your baby Mommy.


5. bananas

I'm thankful for being a Mommy. Their Mommy.

We had a few fun-filled busy days, us 3Stooges....first Mommy got some assistance from Cole while mopping...he has fancy footwork that little boy ;)

Then we proudly hung some Thanksgiving preschool artwork and the boys had a (At times not-so) friendly spelling competition with our fridge magnets.

We scored some wood craft kits at the dollar store and Chace was very content to sit at our art table until the project was done. I see future carpenter, architect, inventor.....hmmmm early retirement for Mommy?!

Our weekly movie date...we get a kick out of going to the movie store and picking a m ovie to watch...Mommy makes sure the cuddle blankie is freshly warmed up in the dryer, snack plates are served, and the clicker is handy.

Goodnight :)

"I'm so sorry....."

The rest I didn't hear as tears blurred my eyes and I stared at the ultrasound screen.

I don't care what others say or offer up for "Comfort". No words can fix the whole in my heart. I am so angry. At the unfairness and loss. I'm so angry at my body for not doing what it's supposed to.
Mostly I'm scared and hurt. What did I do wrong in this life that twice God has given me a beautiful gift, only to take it back again?